The thought had crossed my mind before, but in the still, silent darkness of the room, as I was trying to pray by listening more than talking (more on that in an upcoming post), I felt and heard God whisper, "This is how I want you to be with me. I want you to depend on me for everything."
Jesus, after his disciples asked him, "Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven," replied:
Amen, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven. Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoever receives one child such as this in my name receives me. (Matthew 18:3-5)Why did Jesus need to remind us of this? Because, as with all of the other admonishments he gave us, being like a child in our relationship to the Father is counter-cultural and contrary to our sinful nature. Our culture teaches us to grow up, get out, and blaze our own path, and our sinfulness leads us to be independent and disobedient, the opposite of what God is asking of us: to be dependent and obedient.
In order to return to right relationship with the Father, oddly enough, I need to "grow down" and emulate the obedience of my little girl. It's ironic that God can teach me so much through a little girl who is not even conscious of her own needs, other than the simple need to have mommy and daddy. The Lord truly does work in mysterious ways.